I married a Christian while very young and then that the spiritual responsibility for my family drove me to seek God anew. I became very active in our church over the next 20 years and served in many areas. My walk with Christ during these years was still a rollercoaster but with few deep valleys. My 4 children all accepted Christ, but only 1 is living for Him though all likely consider themselves Christians. I do not consider myself particularly gifted in many of the areas I have served in, but I do consider myself obedient, so when God convicted me to take on a responsibility or project, I obeyed even when I greatly doubted my ability.  When I look back on those years, some were adventures with more lows than highs but every one helped me grow in faith and love for my Savior.

God blessed us and it seemed that as the blessings came in I relied less on God and more on my own abilities and insights. I thought that I had all my ducks lined up nicely, and then I got served with divorce papers. This unbelievably humbling and gut wrenching experience along with the simultaneous loss of my job initiated another personal spiritual revival in my life when I realized that I could not control, buy or figure out solutions for what comes along in life but that it was all in God’s hands.  In the midst of this, I felt convicted to go on a Mission Trip.  I was not needed to make the trip a success but God in His mercy, love and grace chose to allow me to pray with 3 teenagers who had stayed on the outskirts as the Holy Spirit convicted them and they came to Christ at a time when I felt I was useless and a failure. No matter what happens in my life, there will be 3 more souls in Heaven that made my life worthwhile.  Prior to this, I was at the lowest point I had ever been in my life.  While in Mexico I saw things that shamed me for feeling sorry for my situation, so many examples of people with nothing, yet they were happy; people with hardly any resources, planting a new church; with so little, excited to spread the good news.

That was four years ago.  Since then God has continued to bless and heal me.  I didn’t really lose my kids, it just felt like I had.  I got my job back in another one of many miracles I have experienced.  A year and a half ago, I came across a wonderful woman who I deeply love and now attends church here with her 2 daughters.  I don’t have as many dreams anymore but I still have the desire and commitment to serve Christ in whichever way He sees fit and KGF seems to be the place He wants me to be.