My mum is the most amazing mum and on her own she raised me and my sister and did a great job. I waited for a happy birthday call or merry Christmas from my dad, but he didn’t call once so I began to develop hatred.

                 In Grade 10, I began dating Tshepho Sawdon. A year later he went on a retreat and said he needed to talk to me, he had accepted Jesus into his heart. He and a bunch of other friends began to love on me and taking me to youth groups, and picking me up every Sunday morning for church. Three months later on May 13, 2007, I accepted Jesus into my heart and He filled my hole.

                 After accepting Christ, things began to change. I had a great support system of friends and older women, but the hardest times in my life were still to come. I still had to filter out all my anger and hatred but I had His strength unlike before.

                 Since accepting Christ four years ago, He has walked me through some of the hardest things; the forgiveness of family members and how to love and honour them; how to accept God as my Father and how to let Him be the Father I never had and love and be obedient to Him and turning from a rebellious nature.

                 My favourite verse in the Bible is Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” This verse has always come to me at the hardest points in my life, reminding me to seek Him “because He knows my heart better than I do and He will give me my desires.”