The last year has held many difficult changes. Last spring my Dad entered Hospice House. My dad has suffered from a massive heart attack, followed by several surgeries and many medical procedures and interventions. Though his suffering was intense, he always assured us that “God is good.” When Dad entered hospice care, something inside me snapped. I raged at God and questioned how much any one person had to suffer. These 2 months shook my faith to the core. It was during this period that my dearest friends prayed on my behalf. They carried me to Jesus and stood in the gap for me. Dad finally went to be with Jesus in August.
This last year has had a tremendous impact on my relationship with the Lord. I’ve gone from rage and wondering if I can trust God, to deep sorrow and brokenness. It was during this time that I was introduced to GriefShare and KGF church. Again, the Lord’s mercy and grace reached into my life. His arm is long enough to reach us wherever we are. The reminder of God’s love week after week, and that “He for us”, has been a soothing balm for my soul. I believe that this is now a season of healing for me, along with God’s promise to do something new in my life. This promise from Isaiah 43:19 has brought me comfort:
“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”
Thanks be to God for His refining work in our lives at every stage of the journey. Nothing can take us from His loving hand!