I was blessed with the gift of being born into a family that loved Jesus. I accepted Jesus into my heart as a very young child, probably about 3 years old. I grew in my faith although not without trials or loss. When I was 14 I made the decision to be baptized. My course was set and my eyes were on Jesus. Tragedies and events occurred over a number of years and I walked away from the life I had known. My eyes never left Jesus, but the course of my life changed drastically.
After years of a very solitary Christian walk, I found myself a 33 year old widow with a 2 year old son. Not where I ever expected to be! But God has a way of drawing us to Himself. He became my lifeline and, “An ever present source in times of need.”
Matthew 5:4 says, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”
I had already had much to mourn in my short life, so I took Jesus at His word on this and many other promises! He is indeed faithful! After 10 years of single motherhood to the best son a mother could ask for, I married the love of my life!
In 2010 tragedy struck again. This time in the form of my sudden onset kidney failure. Life was once again turned upside down. I lost much of my abilities based identity. I was now dependent on my husband and son for almost every aspect of my life. Humbling indeed, but as so often before God rose up to be my champion and Saviour drawing me closer still to His heart.
A quote from a David G. Benner book states, “An identity grounded in God would mean that when we think of who we are the first thing that would come to mind is our status as someone who is deeply loved by God.” This is who I began to strive to become.
In the fall of 2015 I joined a study called, “The Journey” by Vantage Point 3. This is when life with God started to get really exciting! Through this 3 year set of processes God has taken me on a journey of incredible inner healing, and growth! Amen!
Last spring God gave me a Scripture passage, a mandate if you will.
Isaiah 50:4 The Lord, the Eternal, equipped me for this job—
with skilled speech, a smooth tongue for instruction.
I can find the words that comfort and soothe the downtrodden, tired, and despairing.
And I know when to use them.
Each morning, it is God who wakes me and tells me what I should do, what I should say.
” I am ready and I want to serve my Lord because that is what He desires of me.”
I have come to realize how important it is to be part of a Christian community. I want to stand as part of a community and do what He is calling me to do. He never intended for me to walk a solitary faith. I am seeking church membership in obedience to God. I want KGF to be my community because I FEEL LOVED HERE!
As I was praying about writing my testimony, God gave me a promise.
Psalm 126:6 Those who go weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.